Sundays are hit and miss with me. Sometimes I am totally cheerful and everything goes smoothly, other times I am crabby and nothing seems to go right. Mark has been so good to me with my hormonal pregnancy crabbiness. This Sunday was a "crabby nothing going right Sunday." I feel somehow that my bad attitude just makes bad things happen. I felt like I was saying a pray to myself about every 5 minutes, asking the Lord to soften my heart, help me feel the spirit, help me be calm and patient, help me not to sweat like I'm in a sauna, open my heart and mind to good things, etc... Yesterday seemed particularly difficult.
It's not like it was horrible, but I just had a bad attitude that I couldn't seem to shake. After the sacrament I took the girls to the bathroom with me so that Gwenie and I could use the potty. We went into the handicap stall so that we would all fit and be able to go. First Gwenie went. Then it was my turn. I finished and as I went to pull up my underwear, my dear sweet little girls unlocked and open the stall for all to see my nakedness. I repeatedly told her to close the stall and I ran to the corner to hide myself as I finished dressing myself. The greatest horror was all of the mirrors in the bathroom and all the people I could see in them.
I went to wash my hands and all of he soap dispensers were out of soap. This bathroom trip just seemed to get longer and longer. I gave up and decided to use my hand sanitizer instead. I couldn't even look at anyone as I left the bathroom. I couldn't even look up at most people in relief society, I knew who was in the bathroom and who saw me and my nakedness.
Today, today I can laugh this off. But yesterday it just pushed me over the edge. I have always been really good at laughing things off in life, in general., but I just couldn't with that. I think my lesson that the Lord was trying to teach me was to laugh things off again. I need to change my attitude and this whole nakedness in front of my fellow ward members is something I was meant to laugh at. So today, I laugh at it. Ha ha. Perhaps the next time something like this happens again I will laugh harder. Thank you girls. Thank you Ashley for making light of it so that I could laugh at it a bit!!
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